Heaven is on your side Gee

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Let me pour my heart out, I’m bleeding and it won’t stop. 4th of July should be full of fireworks and excitement, this one however is not. Today, I lost my dear friend Rio, I often call her Gee and she does the same. She was my first close girl friend on my first call center job. As years pass, I know she’s one of those “friends for keeps in a lifetime”. We HAD so many memories together: laughter, tears, pain, heartaches, rain, sunshine, all combined. She was even the reason why I was able to work in Dubai. But out of all, there’s one instance I will never ever forget. It was a normal day and she said “Gee, I don’t have a sister, but if I have one, I would pick you”. So that simple sentence as you see meant so much to me, for I know it came from her pure heart. Life is full of miracles, God gave me another sister.

Now that she’s gone physically, my heart won’t just accept it. Leukemia took her away at a young age. As a nurse, I may happen to know the griefing process and the DABDA stages. The only problem is, she’s so close to me, we treated each other like real sisters, and at this moment, I am torn between Denial and Acceptance.

There are many situations in life when I always say to myself, “I am bigger than my worries and problems”, this time… I need to cry it all out, the positive cheerleader inside of me is silent. For my heart is aching, the heavens are crying for losing one great angel.

To my Dearest Gee, I know you can hear me and you can read this. My words will never be enough, thank you for making me a part of your life. 6 years of deep friendship may not be enough but it was worth it. Thank you for all the happy memories, YOU are now truly an angel. God will take care of you and He has now given you wings to fly… be free and light as you wish to be. I love you my friend, sister, my one and only Gee.

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Trading dreams

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I was on my way to work when I saw her post on Facebook. My heart was broken, she was a dear friend. A loving and very supportive one indeed. I considered her as a sister in life for she has always been there for me when I needed her. Knowing that her father died and she’s thousand of miles away brought tears to my eyes. So now I pray: Dear Lord, I will trade all my dreams for her, please grant her wish tonight. May she meet her father so she can tell her how much she loves her. Give her enough time to share all the things she wants her father to know. I can take nights and days without dreams, let mine be hers. Amen.

Laughter will always be the best Medicine

“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.” ― Mark Twain

Death like life surprises us in most ways we never know. Two days ago, Filipinos all over the world mourned for the death of our own Comedy King famously known as “Dolphy”.

I clearly remember growing up with “Home along da Riles” sitcom which never failed to make me laugh. Honestly, though I am not blood connected to the Comedy King, I think we both resemble a happy spirit full of joy and positive energy. Maybe that is why we have the same birthday. Too bad it was just fifteen days before our birth date and he didn’t make it. But then again, who would love to be born and then die at the same day? My heart grips with loneliness as I read news and facts about him. He has touched so many lives and the people around him felt that he was a great blessing.

To our dear Comedy King, you will not be forgotten and we will always love you. I shall continue my life with more happy moments and unforgettable kindness. Say “Hi” to God for me 🙂 and I know you are at your happiest with Him.