They read you Cinderella

I can love you like that
No…
I can love you more than that
But…
If you are not willing to forget your past
Then…
Stay with those memories
Because…
I won’t stay for someone who’s lingering after another soul

For…
I have so much to give
And…
I am not willing to waste it all on you
If…
You are still blinded by a different light
Then…
You’ll become my darkness

So
Better
Choose
Now
For
I
Might
Leave
Later

Someone…
Must be waiting for me
To offer this kind of love
That I’m giving you

Kill
My
Love
For
You
With
One
Word

Whisper
“Goodbye”
And
I’ll
Be
Gone
But
Not
Like
Cinderella
I’ll
Make
Sure
When
I
Come
Running
Away
From
Your
Castle
That
I’m
Still
Wearing
My
Glass
Shoes
On

Not singing halleluiah for now

Reflecting for the past days have been helpful. I was able to answer questions myself since I can’t find it anywhere else. Also, I spent most of the time in Youtube searching for songs that I can connect with. Found a lot and downloaded them all. Now I find myself memorizing the lines and singing them non-stop in the washroom (I am such a concert queen, lol).

There’s a certain song that I had on repeat for a while. Not sure if you are familiar with the song “Delicate” by Damien Rice. The chorus line says, “Why’d you fill my sorrow with the words you borrowed from the only place you know, why’d you sing halleluiah if it means nothing to you, why’d you sing with me at all?”. Sad isn’t it? So I realized, I should not sing halleluiah for anyone at this time. I realized that after five relationships, (all failed, some tried to win me back but I do not give out second chances, I just don’t believe in them, once is enough two is too much) I should give my heart a break. Until when? I do not know, all I know is that I am not ready to date, to fall and love again. Got a lot of friends and great family members to focus on for now. Being single was my choice and being happy would be mine too. I want the next relationship to be the last and I need to be ready for it. My parents named me Joy, basically because I bought them Joy from day one and I was smiling since. A lot has commented that my “joy virus” in fact is contagious and it will always be. But how come I have hurt some people along the way by leaving them? Though I do not want to kill them with my dagger words, still it does not change the fact that I’ve hurt them.

Now I just need to be patient, days maybe long but I must perfect my baby steps until I’m full-grown.

Girl on Fire, Ms. Joyce Anne Ison ♥

*** The last photo with Joyce Anne Ison ***

For a moment I do not know what to write, all I know is we will miss you badly, we are missing you badly and you haven’t left the country yet. My mind is telling me to just simply make a video to let my feelings out but I can’t speak. One word and I’ll start crying. I want to hug you for a long time earlier but it will make things worse, tears rolled down my cheeks after we said I love you and take care. I questioned “Why of all people, you are the one who needs to leave?”, then again, I know you wanted it badly and you have waited for this for the longest time.

I will miss you and our stories over coffee

I will miss you and our super-duper wacky faces

I will miss you and our colorful outfits

I will miss you and our bending moments

I will miss you TWIN SISTER!

To the Girl on Fire, remember to keep ’em burning. You have to sing If I Ain’t Got You on my wedding day. Promise to take care of the girls, we are just a skype, sms, tweet and an IG away. Love you forever!

One day

I left for a reason.

Though you won’t accept it, one day you will understand.

The star that I used to know

There she is sitting pretty in her book

The book that I gave her

How can she glow when I am so broken?

My shattered heart cannot take it

But the world still pulls me in her direction

My feet walked towards her

I do not know what to say

She looked up

Her eyes so brown and deep

“How can you leave me like this?”

I asked in silence

Heaven does not hear my woes

No answer, just plain quietness

I am so mad

Mad at things but not at her

How can I hate such a beautiful creature?

She, who stole my heart away

But then decided to break it anyway

 

She was the star that I used to know

The star that I can never have, again

Ring

Sometimes, we have to face reality and accept that not all rings symbolize eternity. For once you remove it from your fingers, it will be the end of everything.

Photowords: Horizon

“When you turned your back, I didn’t look after you. I was already busy looking at the wide horizon that’s in front of me. Infinity lies beyond and maybe you were not meant to be a part of it.”

***Photo taken at Potipot Island, Zambales Philippines***