10 Thoughts


1) I am alive again and I am human. I feed on love and pain at the same time.
2) If some people can’t accept us the way we were and the way we are, let them be. Someone will.
3) Feel the pain, for in it, you are bound to see wonderful things.
4) Blue makes me feel happy where everything is cloud like.
5) I am crazy and I have already asked someone if I can date him.
6) Life is so real, I pinched myself earlier and got hurt but didn’t bleed. Life didn’t kill me which means I am stronger in general.
7) Wait and be patient. In moments of loneliness, wait again and be more patient than ever.
8) The only reason why I have problems is because I over think things which should not be the case.
9) There is time for every thing, if only I will give time to make them happen.
10) If if I fail in what ever I do, I tell myself “Get back up and Move on.”

To the Moon Garden and back

Work lately seems a bit stressful. It happens I know and this is one of the few moments where you just want to fly to the Moon and never return. Biggest thanks to Jona for inviting Dredd and I on one of her happy place, the MOON! Nadah! The Moon Garden also known as Lily’s Pond. We don’t have a car but who can stop us, pede naman mag commute right? Kung kaya ko lang talagang mag bike baka ginawa ko na. Haha! Forgive me if I’m gonna tell my story the Tag-Lish way. Some happy things are easier to explain in Tagalog words.

1One, two, three… let’s do this! The two Dora girls are Jona and Dredd (please follow and check out their blog din), sila ang kasama ko sa weekend getaway na ito. I have traveled once with Dredd when we attended a wedding last January, as for the three of us, this is the first. Maya maya ko na ikwekwento ang mga qualities nila. Lol! As we go along na lang.

Back to Moon Garden, once you get to the area, you will be greeted by colorful flowers and yes, super duper green plants. Look, may heart pa sa halaman! How cute diba?

2Hindi ako matigil sa kakasabi ng “Ang ganda naman ng place na to”… and when Bong (the caretaker) opened the door of our room, my jaw dropped open. I was speechless for a split second and before I knew it, I was screaming like a child with delight. I tell you, you have to visit the place to feel how wonderful it is to be there. Just standing in the middle of a nature inspired room makes me wanna sleep all day or write poetry.

3Not to waste so much time, we started out the photo session, haha! Yes, I love being with these two! Hindi kami matigil kaka selfie. Hindi ko na nga sinama lahat ng photos dito kasi feeling ko mauumay na ang mga mag babasa ng blog ko. Haha! Pero promise, I love them because they are so kikay… like I! 🙂

4Dredd was the one responsible for making our itinerary. First stop after checking in at Moon Garden was Ilog Maria Honeybee Farm. Commuting in Tagaytay was an easy one, kasi trike or jeep lang naman ang sasakyan most of the time. From the place we were staying, we just needed to ride a trike going to Rotonda and then ride a jeepney going to Ilog Maria. The heavens must really be on our side most of the time, when the jeep dropped us where the signage says “Ilog Maria” a family with a SUV said we can hop in since they are looking for the same place. Who can get any luckier than us right? Life is full of blessings! Buti na lang talaga at sinakay nila kami… kasi medyo malayo pala ang lalakarin in case. At malamang sa alamang, hulas hulas na ang make up ko pag nag kataon. Pero in fairness, since hindi naman ako masyadong pawisin, kapit na kapit pa din ang mahiwaga kong lipstick. Thank you mommy dearest at matibay ang gift mo! *wink wink*

5The place was not what I expected it to be. Sabagay, hindi pa naman talaga kasi ako nakakapunta sa bee farm. But I was thinking that it would be like a small place only with lots of beehives. It turned out, they have a small shop, a big green garden with bee hives and yes… ang ilog.

6As you can see, we roamed around the area first and then we decided to ask the guard where is the river. Good thing, may isang grupo din na gusto makita ang ilog so we followed them.

7It’s not a big one as you can see sa photo. Hindi na kami bumaba kasi baka hindi na din kami makaakyat. Haha! After a few minutes, we walked back to the store.


Eto na! Eto na talaga, ang mga temptations. I just want to buy all the soaps! Okay, kahit lahat na lang ng Lavander soaps okay na ako. But we are on a trip budget, so hinay hinay lang ako sa pag shop. I can always visit the place in the future naman once I decide to go on a solo vacay again. Ang ending, I bought three stuff from them, photo above, upper right hand corner (massage oil, bee pollen and lavander soap). Yes, I so love myself, I know how to fight with my other self na, three items lang nabili ko!


After our short nature trip, it’s time to bond again. One common denominator that we have? Coffee! We ended up having a long talk at the new Starbucks and yes, more photo ops. Night time came and it’s time for dinner. Sino ba naman ang aayaw sa Bulalo pag asa Tagaytay ka diba? Yes there are a lot of diner and restaurants that offer masarap na Bulalo, but one of them would be Leslie’s. Thank you Dennis sa napakaraming sabaw sana pala yun na lang ang inulam namin, haha!


Now that we are so full… it’s time to head back to Moon Garden. Look how cozy the place is! :p For me the bed is talking “Come and sleep dearie, look how soft and white I am” (Yes, I do talk to things at times).


Before sleeping, cam time muna! Ewan ko ba bat kami pinagsama sama ng tadhana. Mga  half-day selfie pede na samin. Hindi naman halata na maga ang mga mata namin from crying right? We had some deep talk and some realizations about life. It feels great to have real good friends you can confide with.

Dredd, what can I say? She was my first close friend when I transferred sa new Line of Business. She just came from her maternal leave at that time and I really had no idea how we became close, but as far as I remember, she and Rozzel were my constant companions back in the day. I do remember having funny and cool conversations with them. Funny how life separates friends and then bring them back together. Nagkahiwalay din kami ni Dredd because I needed to change Teams, now I say I am happy to spend most of the time with her ulit. We are currently under one team and same time ng shift. Hoping maka bond na namin si Rozzel soon, miss her so much!

Jona, Jona, Jona… this wonderful lady I just met because of a special project sa office. I knew from the start that she was smart and she can write her thoughts well. True enough, just read her blog and you will understand what I’m saying. She’s the cool kid on the block with super funny antics. Promise, I thought my antics were over the top hilarious! Yung kanya ibang level! I won’t spill them, baka hindi na niya ako kausapin, haha! Hoping to spend more time with her so I can get to fully know her.

12Here we are! Umagang kay ganda na! Ang comfy comfy ng bed, I swear I don’t wanna get up. I just wanna cuddle up all day! I just love my neon sports bra, haha! Feeling ko ang happy happy ko when I am wearing something bright.

13But that can’t be, breakfast is ready and so as our tummy’s. Ready to fight?

14And who would not squirm at the sight of these? Yumminess all over! Wala akong masabi, from the food presentation and the taste, masarap talaga! Super sulit ang price! And this I may say is one place na gusto kong mag breakfast for 5 hours? I am not joking, I can literally sit all day and not care just as long as I have a book handy.

15Of course, we needed to check the whole area again and take photos to share with you guys. There are other great blogs out there so be sure visit them for clearer photos. I just used my phone that’s why the quality is not that clear, I have to apologize for that.

16Walked some more, green na green lang talaga ang peg ng place na ito. Very friendly to the human eye I must say.

17We ate our sumptuous breakfast here (photo on right side). It’s surrounded by water and lilies!


More lilies? Here they are! You won’t ever wonder why it’s also called Lily Pond.


At ang aming mga mumunting kalokahan. Mag pa pic daw ba sa damuhan? Puno? at Birds of Paradise? 🙂


The place will invite the bookworm in you din. The owner himself placed a lot of books and magazines to read.

At this point, it’s time to leave and eat lunch. As much as we don’t wanna go and I don’t want to leave the soft bed alone, we have to. 😦

21Lunchtime before going back to Manila… we chose Bag of Beans. I’ll give the place a 4/5 rating, very nice but malamok ng konti (besides, kagatin naman talaga ako ng insekto, haha). The food, for me was the best. Medyo may kamahalan lang but the servings are big naman so I guess worth it siya.

22And the last thought I had in mind was the unforgettable BLUEBERRY CHEESECAKE. I have loved them since college days but this one topped all the Blueberry Cheesecake I have ever tasted in my entire life. Hindi ako OA, just being true. It was not so sweet like the others and the mix of softness and melted Blueberry made me fall in love. It has been three weeks from the time I first tasted this to die for cake and I am very willing to go back to Tagaytay just to have a taste of it again.

To these two wonderful ladies! May our bond and closeness tighten as days continue to roll by. Cheers to the selfie momentos and those who says that eating will make us fat. LOL!

***If you want to visit The Moon Garden, check out their Facebook Page and feedback at TripAdvisor.***

Blurry weekend

Tuesday, another day to start of the work week. Thank you for the additional day off, happy MLK day to all those living in the U.S.

I started the weekend, Saturday with a bang! After work, my friends and I visited the National Museum, Intramuros, and had late lunch at the famous Ilustrados Restaurant. Nightime came, I still was not able to rest. My highschool batchmates came to our house for our alumni anniversary. Needless to say, when they left past midnight, I was in bed after cleaning up.


Sunday, I spent half of the day sleeping and the rest of the day watching movies with my sister Krissy. We finished 4 movies: Nowhere Boy (which I found very interesting since I love The Beatles), Green Lantern, Moonrise Kingdom (adored the characters), and Django (unfortunately, I fell asleep because it was too long).

Monday came and I was excited!!! Dad brought us to our new “kubo” in the middle of Laguna Lake. We had so much fun and being the eldest, I had to cook. Good thing there is google and “magic sinigang mix”. If not, I can’t imagine how and what will my sinigang version look and taste for that matter. Lol! We also had fried porkchop, stuffed milkfish and watermelon. Happy tummy!!! After lunch everyone was sleepy so we all took a nap while the wind was blowing hard. *mental note* bring a comforter next time 🙂



Tuesday!!! Tada!!! I made a decision to let go  my huge earrings collection. “Twinkle the star”, my online dream shop was born. Can’t believe that after so many debates I had with myself, I finally did it! I’m letting them go and though tears swell from my eyes, this is for the best. I just know it, mom was right… I can’t wear them all together.


1. I can be a homebuddy 🙂
2. Material things are really not that important.
3. Family comes first.
4. I should drink more water than coffee.
5. Cold weather makes me 20% more emotional than normal.
6. I should sleep more and read more.
7. I should really sleep or drag myself to sleep even if I don’t want to, like what’s happening now.

Hope you had a great one dear friends 🙂

Drowning in the shadows


At times I feel like drowning
There was nothing left to do
But to catch one last breath
And hope I can survive for a minute Another minute, an hour, days, or even months

I prayed hard that someone Will see me asking for help
And extend a hand
To save me from the mess I have created
As demons of my own continues to haunt me
But no one did
As I was about to completely surrender
I saw a tiny flicker of light, turned into fire
A blinding contrast of orange and yellow that seemed to burn my being
Hesitant at first, I forced to open my eyes

He was there
GOD was there

Flashbacks and realizations hit me all at once
I knew then I am the only one
Who can fight my own demons
See the true light
With His complete guidance

No regrets, just love

When I think of it now, I smile. How I loved and was loved in return. But then some love were not really ours in the first place. God just lent it to us and after some time, we have to return it back. Return it with a hopeful heart that next time, He will give that ‘one, last, true love’. For a long time, I never thought about my past relationships. I realized I have not thanked them enough for teaching me how to love in all ways possible and for them loving me back until the end.

To my first love, thank you for opening up my heart. Those long phone conversations won’t be forgotten. The nights when I was literally staring at the ceiling and smiling the whole time. Funny love letters, cross stitches and stuff.

To my second love, thank you for writing “I love you” a million times. That small handwriting of yours and numerous white pages all filled with the same three words. I know how much you didn’t want to give us up.

To my third love, thank you, thank you, thank you for the blueberry muffins. I know baking them is hard but you still managed to bring me lots when you visit. Thank you for always reminding me that my smile is perfect. Though the blog you created for me (astersmiles) no longer exist, it won’t be forgotten. Continue playing the guitar like you used to.

To my fourth love, awww… you were… a lot of things. Thank you for making me laugh so hard every time when we’re together. For looking straight into my eyes and telling me how pretty and lovely I look. You always say those three words first, morning, lunch, afternoon, dinner, you never failed. I know how much you hate it when we fight and let the sun go down without doing anything. You and I were so real when we’re together.

To my fifth love, thank you, for letting me go and I am sorry for hurting you big time. My sorry’s will never be enough but I still want to say it. I saw the silver painted star fish I gave you the other day and I thought, like that pretty lil’ thing, the love you have given me will always be special. Countless coffee shops, travels and pictures. Yes, I may be the lady who can create thousands of emotions in photos, but that wouldn’t change the fact I broke your heart, again I am deeply sorry. Soon you will forget me.

To my sixth, thank you, it was short but memorable. Some things are just not meant to be no matter how badly we want it. Wanting was never enough.

To my seventh, I know you are out there… maybe you were just stuck in traffic and your car won’t move for months, years, a century? Haha! Or you are busy cliff diving, or cooking, or taking photos or whatever! Don’t worry, will wait patiently 🙂 Great things come to those who wait and pray silently. Meanwhile, I will be busy making myself better so when you come, You and l will have a happy life ahead. As they say, 7 is the number of perfection.

To all those love, that didn’t last, do not fret, it’s not meant to be and being alone for sometime is part of the plan. Just keep holding to faith and love. ♥

Girl in Blue and Men in Black

Spent my whole day watching “Men in Black” movies. To tell you honestly, I was never a big fan of this alien thingy stuff. I mean, I adore Starwars but not MIB. Still I needed to give myself a chance to know the story, expanding my horizon is one thing I am good at.

I woke up earlier as usual, popped out of bed, had breakfast and started my DVD marathon. First movie was cool, I met characters K and J (and the aliens which I found cute). So they became partners in crime and saving the earth from bad aliens who wanted to invade Earth. Their action stunts are well executed along with their weird guns and “Neuralyzer”. The idea of using a neuralyzer was actually cool but not so cool when it comes to the truth. It wipes out the past event that recently happened, worse, it can wipe out all your memory (depends which level are they gonna click). Like having an alzheimers I believe. My favorite part of the movie was when Agent K searched for her wife using the PC and saw her gardening. It was the time when he was thinking how he missed her so much and all of it was taken away since he joined MIB (part of the deal was that he never existed).

MIB 2, the fighting and saving and neuralyzing continues with K and J hand in hand. Although at the start of it, Agent J needed to bring back Agent K the hard way. Still they survived and saved the planet earth again.

Third movie of the Men in Black for me was the best. The plot was great specially if you watched the first two movies before watching the last one. Also it comes in 3D that made the effects amazing! Talk about the story in a deep way, it tackled “TRUTH”. Agent J needed to follow Agent K by time travelling and save him. As per Agent K, “There are questions you don’t wanna know the answer”. True enough, the ending has the biggest twist! Turned out that when Agent K was about to get shot by Boris the animal, a man saved him. That man was Agent J’s father. Since that was Year 1969 (if I’m not mistaken) James was very young and K had to use the neuralyzer so that the memories he had with his dad will be forgotten. This is the part when I was crying my heart out because as a grown up, J witnessed the biggest heartache of his life, and the truth was laid out before him. Turned out that Agent K from the very start chose Agent J for a reason.

As for me, I do not ask if I’m not interested in the answer. Some questions are presented to us the hard way, answering them are way too difficult. Sometimes, it’s for the best that we don’t know the answer to our questions. We just need to believe that our answers are the truth and live by it. Now I LOVE MEN IN BLACK!

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